jesus, you’re all i need

June 19, 2008

It’s amazing to me how powerful a song can be.  One lyric can sum up a million feelings.  And my absolute favorite way to worship my god is through song.  To just raise my hands and sing praises to him gives me the deepest joy.  This joy inspired me to write this post.

I just went on a week mission trip to Seattle.  God moved in a huge way and I couldn’t wait to share that with everyone.  I had been planning to write about the amazing things that God had done this week soon but I hadn’t gotten around to it yet.  I’m not sure if I was still tired from the trip and wasn’t willing to sit at my computer and think of words to describe this past week or what.  For some reason or another, I was procrastinating writing about the experiences of this week.  Until tonight.

I, along with most of the human race, am an unpatient person.  I know God has an amazing plan for my life.  I know I will be blessed.  And I know that it will be greater than I could ever imagine.  Despite all this, I still grow impatient and excited.  I keep begging God to reveal a little bit of his plan for me and as soon as I think he is doing just that, I realize that it is just me trying to plan out my own life and ignoring him.  My plan, which had disquised itself as god’s plan, had me finally getting the desires of my heart that the lord has promised me.  God’s plan, however, had me still growing in him and him saying “Hold on, Allison.  Keep delighting yourself in me.”  When I finally realized that I had begun to take control, I knew that I had to give it back to God.  I was relieved to know that I have better things coming my way eventually.  But I was also upset to say goodbye to what I had planned.  I had so invested myself in these wordly things that I forgot that it is nothing if it is not through the Lord.  So it made sense that he would not give me the desires of my heart if they were not going to be through him.  I was contemplating this whole thing tonight, a part of me trying to make a bargain with God, you know, trade some of my ideas with his.  Yeah, it didn’t work so well but at the end of the night he did remind me of something.

I had a lyric stuck in my head.  Couldn’t remember what song it came from but I had this stuck in my head:

“Jesus, you’re all I need.  You’re more than enough for me.”

I looked up the lyric online and quickly found through the wonder that is google that the lyrics came from the song “Healer”.  I had heard the song before but getting to re-read those lyrics was exactly what I needed.  I had forgotten that he is all I need.  I had forgotten that he is my portion.  And I had forgotten that he holds my world in his hand.

I realized the message that God has been smacking me across the face with.  He did it all during the Seattle mission trip, he did it tonight with this song, and he is going to keep on doing it until I finally get it.  God is EVERYTHING I need.  I need nothing and no one else but him.

During the mission trip, our groups got attend a worship service at a women’s homeless shelter called Mary’s Place.  These women at this service had next to nothing.  Most of them had the clothes on their backs and that was about it.  And yet, almost all of them were praising God like you have never seen.  These women knew that god is faithful and that he is everything they need.  I heard a quote once that says, “You may never know Jesus is all you need, until Jesus is all you have.”  I was so fortunate to get to see that this past week.  I saw women who only had Jesus, and they were still able to praise him more than I had ever imagined.

I pray that even some of that complete faith and dependency rubbed off on me.


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